I don’t know if everyone is like this, but stagnancy scares the shit out of me. When I am stagnant, I get complacent and lazy. I feel stunted and the chances of my depression and anxiety increasing skyrocket. But then there’s the fear of change and the fear of moving forward. The fear of failing… Continue reading Growth
There’s something terrifying about turning 31. I mean as I faced my 30th birthday, just over a year ago, I wasn’t worried. I thought to myself, “30 will be no different from 29.” But it was. My body changed in ways I never imagined, I experienced adventures I never anticipated, and I fell in love… Continue reading 31. This is.
06/09/1988 In just a few short hours, I’m turning 31 years old. What has 30 years of life taught me so far? It’s like, where do I even begin? There’s so much to say and yet, it isn’t impactful until you actually experience the years yourself. And yes, I bet, there’s so much more to… Continue reading 30 Years The Wiser
It’s impossible to be 100% confident and secure in yourself 100% of the time. And this week, I hit a few bumps on my continuous journey of self love. Up until about four or five years ago, I had very little self esteem and zero self worth. The last five years have been a rollercoaster… Continue reading Self Love: Under Construction
I'm sure the internet is riddled with formulas and fixes for relationships. I've just entered a new relationship after two years of being single. I'm very mindful of my past mistakes. I'm also very aware of my limits and standards. I've realized for a relationship to have the potential to last it needs to have… Continue reading A Relationship That Lasts?
Sugar coating my story may make it more comfortable to read and digest, but then what point would there be in sharing it? Like many girls, I grew up in a home that idealized the "model" body and so perpetuated that as what was beautiful. This meant that from a very young age, when I… Continue reading Embracing The Journey
I started this blog hoping that I may be able to finally be open, honest and real. I've blogged for many years before under anonymity and it was easy. Now that I'm open about who I am, blogging has proven to be much harder than it once was. I truly believe that it is important to… Continue reading Purpose
This spring break I'll be visiting my sisters in southern California. It goes without saying that I'm really excited to see my three sisters. So why am I also dreading this family reunion?I'm anxious mainly because I know we will be judging each other. Whether we like it or not, we have always been competitive to… Continue reading Spring Break Anxieties
~Updated~ First, my father hits me up. I haven't talked to him in at least six years. Out of the blue, he messages me on Facebook. How is that possible? I blocked him on there. And last I talked to him, his message to me was the same: "I never imagined that your intelligence would… Continue reading Shaming
My mother asked me a question recently that I conveniently ignored. However, it's been weighing on my mind for quite some days now. She asked me why my sisters are straying from our beliefs and faith so much. She asked it as if she had no idea where she went wrong. In my mind, I… Continue reading A Letter To My Mom & I Hope She Doesn’t Read It.