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Self Love: Under Construction

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It’s impossible to be 100% confident and secure in yourself 100% of the time. And this week, I hit a few bumps on my continuous journey of self love.

Up until about four or five years ago, I had very little self esteem and zero self worth. The last five years have been a rollercoaster ride as I worked on building a healthier relationship with my body and altering my mindset. In the last year or two, I’ve made great strides.

This does not mean that I don’t have my down days. And yesterday was one of them. I slipped back into my self hating mindset and saw nothing beautiful when I looked in the mirror.

Despite this bout of depressed thinking, I still went to the gym and attempted to go about my day as best as I could.

This morning, I woke up feeling better, but I didn’t forget my relapse. The issue with us is when we relapse we convince ourselves that we slid all the way back to square one and so give up.

But what I’ve learned over the years is that it’s natural to relapse. And it’s ok to feel beat down. However, we MUST keep trying and keep moving forward. My relapses are much shorter now and I don’t slide back as far when I do.

Every new day is just that- a new day. We have to pick ourselves back up, dust off our knees, and keep going because our happiness is at stake.

We only have one body to live in. And one life to live. Love your body and live your life so that in the end one life enough. Self hate has no room here; it may visit once in a while, but it’s never allowed to stay.

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The Gymer’s Struggle

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The Gymer’s Struggle

Before going to the gym:

  • I’m so tired.
  • I have a million things to do like wash dishes, do laundry and clean out that bottom drawer in the fridge- something is growing in there that isn’t supposed to.
  • It’s been a long day.
  • I can workout tomorrow.
  • I have to prepare for work tomorrow.
  • I have to cook dinner or grade papers or shampoo the rug.
  • I think I left my laptop plugged in.
  • I’m hungry.

On the way to the gym:

  • I really don’t want to do this.
  • I can turn around now and just go home.
  • Did I forget something?
  • Did I leave a light on, or the stove? I should just go home and check on that.

While parked outside the gym:

  • Do I have to go in?
  • *Checks email, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat, looks up sports bras at Victoria’s Secrets, checks the weather, bank account, and creates a meme about going to the gym*

While at the gym:

  • I am already out of breath and I just walked in.
  • Does that count as a workout?
  • I miss my couch.
  • Ok, ok! This isn’t so bad.
  • Sweating actually feels good.
  • Just one more squat. Ok, now one more.
  • I can do a few more minutes on the bike.
  • My legs feel like jelly, oh yes!
  • Stretching is heaven.
  • Am I already done with all my workouts?

After the gym:

  • I feel so good!
  • That wasn’t so bad.
  • I’m so full of energy now.
  • I love the gym!
  • I can’t wait to come back tomorrow.
  • Why did I not want to come here to begin with?